“What do you want me to do for you?” Jesus asked. “My Rabbi,” the blind man said, “I want to see!” Mark 10:51
Self-Awareness –Jesus, what am I not seeing when I look in the mirror? How do I make it difficult for friends, family, and co-workers to give me feedback? The tension-temperature seems to rise when I enter the room. Maybe it’s not about others growing up, but me getting low. Jesus, dare I pray it? Yep… humble me Lord.
Grateful Healed Leper – Abba, I’ve been too busy to say thank you lately—too “familiar” with the Gospel and Gospel-speak to really feel and be grateful. That’s a scary place, so on this April Saturday, I’m reversing the drift. Thank you for loving me as much as you love Jesus. Thank you for beginning a work in me you will complete. Thank you for making Jesus my righteousness, holiness, and redemption. Make that more real than anything else in my life.
Repentance – Father, forgive me for indulging such a bad attitude this week. I’ve been irritated and critical, and I even tried to convince myself it was justified. It’s not. I know you love me and that you’re in control. Thank you for your kindness. I’m a mess grateful for your mercy. Gentle my snarky heart.
Prodigal Child – Father, please bring my prodigal daughter (or son) back home. I hate the thought of her being completely broken, but if that’s what it takes to bring her to yourself, do whatever you must. I see and grieve my self-righteousness and controlling ways, and I’m sure I made it easier for her to run away. Help both of us, Lord. In Jesus’ name I pray. Amen.
Pained Heart – Jesus, my heart hurts. A good friend just moved away and I’m tired of transitions and changes in my life. I long for the Day of no more goodbyes. Hasten that Day, Lord; make it sooner than later. Amen
Sickness – God, I’m sick of being sick. It makes me sad for my family. No one is complaining but me, but it’s just not right. How long, O Lord? I’m not shaking my fists at you; I just want some relief. Please heal me, to whatever degree possible, or at least give me some of the sufficient grace you gave Paul. .
Done – Father, I’m done with church, Christians trying to fix me, and me trying to be spiritual. I just want to go away, be by myself, and get a new story. Why bother? I don’t really see change in my life, and you confuse me. I’m not tempting you. I just want you to know I feel like Jonah, but I really don’t want to become whale vomit. I’m a mess, Father. My only hope is that you love messes.
So Very Amen