“What do you want me to do for you?” Jesus asked him. The blind man said, “Rabbi, I want to see.” Mark 10:51
Lord Jesus, when it comes to our needs, you are never in doubt, nor do you need our permission to act. So why did you even bother to ask this blind man to name his request? You are so wise and loving, Jesus.
Sometimes it’s in the act of actually voicing our longings that we risk discovering the depth of our actual need. Sometimes we’d settle for relief when you’re committed to giving us a changed heart. Sometimes we want you to call down fire on others, and until we actually say it out loud, our self-righteousness and unforgiveness stay hidden in our desire for revenge. Sometimes our “asks” are too small, too embarrassing, or, we think, too impossible.
So, what do we want you to do for us, Jesus? Like this blind man, we too want to see. We want to see you more clearly, Jesus, and much more of you, and much more of the time. This is our greatest ophthalmological need.
We want to see ourselves as belonging to you, hidden in you, delighted in by you, and being kept for you. And we are desperate to see others—all others, as you see them. Do grace-laser surgery on the eyes of our hearts. We want to blame less, and love more.
We want to see our pains, heartaches, and challenges—not merely as something to get over, but as providences to grow through. We want to see time as a gift to be stewarded, not a luxury to be squandered. We want to see money as the currency of grace, not as the basis of our security. It all comes back to seeing you, Jesus. So Very Amen.