“I am the least of the apostles and don’t even deserve to be called an apostle…” (1 Cor 15:9 – written AD 53); “I am least deserving of all God’s people…” (Eph. 3:8 – AD 62); “Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners—of whom I am the worst.” (1 Tim 1:15 – AD 65).
Lord Jesus, thank you for inspiring Paul to write a “grace-diary” for us—his account of getting to know you better and treasure your grace more fully. As Paul got older, we don’t see him growing in self-deprecation, but in Gospel-celebration. He didn’t backslide into sin; he “front-slid” into more grace—for grace always flows downhill.
This is both freeing and humbling. It’s freeing because we typically assume the better we know you the less we’ll need to repent. Actually, we won’t repent less; we’ll repent quicker. Because the better we know you, the more we will discover the contrast between your beauty and our brokenness. That’s the humbling part.
Our peace and joy come from knowing we aren’t saved to the degree we are like you Jesus, but in you. It’s our union with you that saves us—and we shout “Hallelujah!” that this is the Gospel. Our lives are hidden in you 100%. But it’s your Spirit’s work in us to actually make us more like you, Jesus—which is our calling, destiny, and delight (Rom.8:29; 1Jn.3:2; 2Cor.3:18).
So Jesus, show each of us the ways we hide and contradict your truth, goodness, and beauty. We want our thoughts, words, and deeds to honor you, Jesus. No condemnation is left for our sin, but tons of grace are given for our Christlikeness, Jesus-revealing, and loving others as you love us. Thank you Jesus. Free us to be chief-repenters, grace-needers, and Gospel-celebrators—where we live, work, and play. So Very Amen.